Recently, I was accepted into the College of Engineering of Cornell university through early decision. I have always wanted to make a college admission decision reaction video but since I got into ED and have only one reaction, I, unfortunately, won't be able to do that. So instead, I'll be sharing my essay with my readers.
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I'm looking at my scrabble rack and I notice WATCH: Double word, 37 points. Not bad, I think, as I'm slowly taken back to a memory…
I'm in my school's auditorium in a brand-new uniform, surrounded by other girls wearing the same uniform. I zone out but snap back into reality when I hear my principal's voice, "Watch and learn. This should be the rule you follow every day while you're here. Watch and learn from anyone and everyone, and you'll be able to thrive here." As the nervous new girl I am, I take this to my heart and decide to live by it. I am here to Watch, Learn, and…
FOLLOW. Almost a bingo. Oh! And I can place it at B14 for 38. This reminds me of…
"Follow-on": a phrase that appears in my school anthem precisely 21 times. Now I realize the meaning behind it, as it resonates with the words of my principal. Adding it to my motto, I follow others and learn from them. I observe every move, success, and mistake, and learn that I should do this here and say that there. I find activities that give me a sense of belonging and things I think would help me survive in a new environment. I repeat this process, blinded by wanting to fit in, without realizing how it's affecting me, like how I made...
…SQUAD for 45! It will open the board too! Today is indeed my lucky day. And I'm yet again reminded of a day just as lucky…
"The squad goes to….SANSOM HOUSE!" And we rejoice. After weeks of non-stop practicing under the scorching sun, we won! As we hug and scream, I think back to the words that brought me here, "Watch and Learn." I recall how I watched my seniors in action and realized that this was something that made me feel included, and I pat myself on the back for my motto choice. I get that sense of belonging again, however...
...something feels off, and I can't quite put my finger on it. Then it dawns on me! All this watching and learning made me the person others wanted me to be. I was toning myself down to fit others' standards, and now I'm struggling to be myself and shape my own life. I took my principal's words into my heart without understanding their true meaning. I made a…
MISTAKE! A Bingo! But…. I don't have anywhere to place it. I realized I was opening the board since I was leading, without noticing my opponent was close behind. I must pay attention to the long term, just like how…
...instead of watching people and learning what my next move should be, I decide to filter what I see, modify it to suit myself, and mold myself into my own person instead of a blueprint of what's expected of me. I add "filter" and "modify" to my motto.
I slowly shatter the shell I made for myself. I do sports that are considered lame, start new clubs, take on challenges and simply be myself. A series of such events over 2 years led me to my first ever bingo in scrabble in 2019…
STARLET! And I can make it at O1 for 75! And now I'm leading with a 150+ margin. Oh! The satisfaction, like what I felt when I made the same word in my first-ever scrabble tournament 3 years ago, unveiling another string of memories of myself…
…over the last three years. I watch myself grow into my own person with my own personality and values. I play scrabble -a game nearly rejected by my school until I strived to revive it- and code -when many people discouraged me. I keep challenging myself as I create a new meaning for my motto. One doesn't simply "watch and learn." Instead, one must "watch, filter, learn, and create."
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